Confession Time

Yet again I have allowed myself to lose control. I find myself back at the beginning and at an all time high with my weight. I now weigh more than I have ever weighed in my life. I didn't weigh this much when I was nine months pregnant with my ten pound baby boy.

I feel like a nine month pregnant person. I'm miserable, I have trouble moving, my clothes are uncomfortable and I'm pretty sure I wobble when I walk.

The cold hard truth is, I'm the only one that can do anything about it. The problem is, I feel so defeated that I don't even know where to start. I feel so overwhelmed with where I have allowed myself to get and this hurdle just feels impossible to get over.

So, beginning again, one day at a time. If I can make it one day, then I can make it two days and so on. Right now though, I have to focus on that ONE DAY. If I think past that I just can't deal. I start to feel the pressure of making the right choices all the time and start to feel out of control.

I truly feel like the right thing for me to do right now is to count calories and try to be more active. Counting calories will allow me a little more freedom with food choices. If I want a piece of chocolate, I can have it. But, I also know that making healthier choices will allow me to improve my health and eat a little more. The goal is health, plain and simple.

In the past several months I have been following the Keto diet plan and I did lose some weight. But, I fell off the wagon and gained it all back. I found all the food restrictions to be difficult to handle and I would end up binge eating carbs and sugar.

One thing I know about myself is that I just can't have trigger foods in the house. If it's here, I will eat it. That's just a cold, hard fact. I have very little self control when it comes to food. I've had to own this truth about myself.

I do have a slow metabolism (hypothyroidism) which puts a kink in things. But, I don't want to allow this to be an excuse. I know I can still lose weight. I just have to put a little extra effort into it.

At this point I'm desperate for change. I'm taking the first step by being transparent and sharing my failures with you. The next step is to start holding myself accountable for my choices, counting my calories and moving my butt.

One other thing I must do is put my faith in God to help me through this. I know that all things are possible with God. When I try to rely on my own abilities it never works. I have to put my eyes on Him and allow Him to take control.

So, I'm starting again and I invite you to come along on the journey. I can almost assure you that it will not be a smooth journey, but it will be interesting.

Till next time...God bless!

The Myths and Truths of Fad Diets

The Myth: Don't Eat Carbs
The Truth:  Our bodies need carbohydrates.  If you eliminate this nutrient from your diet completely, you could suffer a reduction of the hormones that control fat loss.  This reduction will make it harder to have the lean body you desire.  Good Rule to Follow:  Allow yourself more carbs on the days you are active and fewer on the days you're not.  Also, make sure the bulk of your carbs are obtained from whole foods such as fruits and vegetables.

The Myth: You Must Not Eat at Night
The Truth:  This is a very restrictive way to live and is not linked to any science-backed rules of weight loss.  The only way you will get fat by eating in the evening is by overeating.  If you know how many calories you should be consuming each day, you can consume those calories at whatever time of the day works for your body.

The Myth:  Fasting
The Truth:  Researchers at the University of Utah discovered that people who fasted one day each month were 40%  less apt to develop clogged arteries.  There are many different ways to fast.  An important thing to remember is to never feel that you have to eat if you’re not hungry.  Short daily fasts (for 12 to 16 hours) or a once-a-week daily fast can have health benefits.  It can also help you to learn the difference between boredom or thirst from true hunger.

The Myth:  Supplements for Weight Loss
The Truth:  You should build a foundation of healthy eating and exercise.  However, there are some supplements that can be beneficial in filling any nutritional deficiencies and help your body perform in a more efficient manner.  Using a supplement of 2,000 to 3,000 IU of Vitamin D3 is a wise investment  that will benefit your overall health and weight-loss goals.

Update

Well people, I'm not doing so good on the diet front.  I rejoined Weight Watchers, but I have managed to gain weight, not lose.  I am very discouraged and down on myself at the moment.  I just can't seem to get my momentum going in the right direction.

No fear, though, I am not giving up by any means.  This week I am doing much better and I am determined to stick to my goal.  I knew starting out that this was going to be a hard road to travel and I told you all that I would be honest about my struggles.

To be honest, I haven't posted in a while because I am so disappointed in myself and I didn't want everyone to know that I haven't made any progress.  But, I feel like if I don't let you know and I don't admit the truth, then I will continue to hide my head in the sand.  So, hopefully this update will give me the kick in the butt I need to get my momentum heading in the right direction.

So, good or bad, I will be giving an update on Tuesday, which is the day I have to weigh in.  I know I'm not alone in this struggle and I hope that I can encourage others battling this same issue.

Till Tuesday....