Exercise....ugh!!!

I did it!  I started exercising today.  I actually walked to my son's school today to pick him up instead of driving. It was about a 40 minute walk round trip.  It was hot!  Of course, it didn't help that I was wearing denim shorts.  I don't currently own a lot, well actually any, exercise appropriate clothing.  I'm going to have to change that.

Although, it was a great opportunity to exercise and spend time with my kid, I probably won't do it again.  He didn't just come right out and say it, but I think he felt it wasn't so cool to be walking home with his mom.  At least I got started and I feel better about myself just knowing I made a positive step.

One little problem, I have a blister on the bottom of both feet.  I don't really know why; I wore my walking shoes and I have never gotten blisters on the bottom of my feet before.  I'm gonna have to invest in some blister block band-aids.  My husband's aunt told me they saved her feet at Disney this summer.

Overall, I am very proud of myself.  I have made a step in the right direction and I feel momentum bubbling up.  I know I can do this.

Lost Another Pound

Lost another pound this week.  I'll take it.  It's better than gaining any day!

It's going slow and that is nobody's fault but my own.  I haven't started exercising yet and I haven't been doing as well as I could with my eating.  I could blame a lot of things, but the biggest problem is me!  I just haven't got the will power under control.

I am determined to start exercising Monday, no excuses!  Even if it is only a 20 minute walk, it's better than nothing at all.  I don't have any energy right now, but I know that once I start getting some exercise that will change.  I always feel better when I exercise.

So, Monday it is.  I'll let ya'll know how it goes!

Till then! :)

Doing Better

Well, I had my weigh-in on Friday and I lost half a pound.  I know it's not much, but it's definitely better than gaining.  I have done much better with my eating since then and I have great expectations for this week's results.

I still have not started exercising.  I know that I need to exercise and I also know that I will get better results if I do.  I just do not have any energy and it has been so hot.  The positive things I remember from exercising in the past are that I always had more energy and it gave me a real boost in the self esteem department.  It feels good to know I am doing something positive for my health.

The problem is figuring out what I can do and what I will stick with.  I mentioned in an earlier blog entry that I have a bad back and I have to be careful what I do or I will end up flat on my back.  I want to do something fun that doesn't really feel like exercise.

So, if any of you readers have any suggestions, please leave a comment.  I would greatly appreciate the input.

Yikes! It's Been a Bad Week

Well, I told you at the beginning that I was going to be honest.  I have had a really bad week.  I didn't just fall off the wagon, I dove off head first.

I have ate everything and anything I could get my hands on.  I don't know what happened to my determination.  It's like I just flipped a switch and things went haywire.  I feel really lousy about this mis-step, but I am not giving up.  I am not going to let this get me down.  

My best friend called me during my out of control spiral and we have agreed to be accountable to each other.  I am very grateful that I have her in my life.  She is like a sister to me and I know that I can tell her anything without fear of judgement.  I just wish she lived closer.  

Now that I have confessed my failure, I have to prepare for a new week and a new start.  I know that I can do this.  I am in control.  

Hunger

"A good meal ought to begin with hunger." --French Proverb

Hunger is the key people!  I have spent the largest chunk of my life eating for the wrong reasons.  Three of my favorites:  "it's time to eat," everyone else is eating," and, "(insert name) offered it to me, I couldn't be rude and not eat it."

I have gone for days without feeling true hunger.  When I really think about that, it's scary.  I never stop eating long enough to get hungry.  It is my new mission in life to be hungry when I eat.  This week is a new beginning for me.

In the past few days I have experienced true hunger and it's amazing how much more satisfying food is when I'm hungry.  I'm also trying to pay attention to how I feel when I eat.  I want to eat to live, not live to eat.  So, another key is to stop eating when I am satisfied and not stuffed.

It's only been a few days, but I can already tell a difference in how I feel, not just physically, but mentally.  I feel like I am doing something good for myself.  I've let myself be controlled by food for so long and now I'm finally in control for once.

I can't believe I'm going to say this, but I'm oddly looking forward to weighing on Friday.  I feel good about my progress and hopefully the scales will be in agreement.  I'll let you know how it turns out!